Take a peek into our chaos

I am Mom and step mom. I am a wife and ex-wife. I am a working mom just wading through sh*t on a daily basis and making the best life I can for my husband, my children and myself. There are never enough hours in the day or enough energy to accomplish everything I want to. My life can be a chaotic nightmare that I would choose to do over and over again.

My life is a Sh*t Show.

I love all my chaotic offspring, big and small. I am learning to love my husband, again. I have a day job that I love. I am along for the ride of a custody case regarding 2 of our middle children. I started this blog to process my life and make some always needed money. Maybe my struggles can help someone out there and make for some good entertainment for others.

So, Lets start with the basics.

I have 8 children (actually 9 but that’s a story for another time). Mr. Chaos and I have been married for 6 years. We have a blended family. The oldest chaos 1 is 24 and baby Chaos 8 is a crazy 5.

We live in a smaller fixer upper home on the edge of a large Midwest city. We have a nice piece of land that is a nice size for a city. It’s full of play equipment and random toys abandoned until next play time. Our home is small but full of love (corny as it sounds). It has seen 3 children grow up and leave her while protecting the younger 5.

Mr. Chaos and I have had our issues. Life was pretty chaotic from the beginning. All the ups and downs through finalizing divorces that drug on and a stalker ex-husband. Parents who hated us falling in love and the blending of multiple families. I have good days and feel content and others where I am angry. We are choosing our life daily. We are a big, blended family dealing with a sh*t show of a life.

I work for a large company that manufactures construction equipment. It is tedious computer work and I wouldn’t have it any other way. When I went to school, as an adult learner, I didn’t have a clue what my degree would be used for. The blurb in the community college catalog made it seem fun and ex-husband 1 deemed it worthy of my time. My kids and parents, can’t explain what I do despite working in the field for almost a decade and my many futile attempts to explain it to them. My company and co-workers are amazing and I have no real responsibility. Perfect job for me since I have more than enough responsibility at home.

Our current major sh*t show is regarding chaos 5 & chaos 6. A few months ago, we had to take them full-time. Ex-wife 2 proved she didn’t have the best interest of them at heart. She agreed to supervised visits only. With most of the evidence gathering and organizing falls on my shoulders. I needed an outlet to process all the bullsh*t we have ignored trying to keep ex-wife 2 active in 5 & 6 lives. Mr. Chaos and I are advocates for 50/50 parenting and we didn’t see the entire situation as it was, but as what we wished it was. We are now working with chaos 5 & 6 through their trauma. They are safe and protected.

Life costs money but I don’t want to work to live.

We want our children to have better. The big and little chaos, extra-curriculars, lawyers, remodeling and just living, cost money. We need lots of money to give them everything we want to in the future. We have struggled in the past. I don’t want to have to worry about every penny spent just in case something happens. The current court case is going to cost us thousands, We have been promising the children a home addition for years (as far back as when the adult children were in single digit ages). Every time we get close, we get knocked down hard. I’m ready to financially struggle less and give our children, adults and young more.

I have been told over the last 20 years that I should write a book.

So we are buckling up for a roller coaster of a life and I am becoming a blogger in addition to my full-time day job, my husband’s night manufacturing job, his small business, and side hustle plus competition dance, regular dance, planning a wedding for chaos 2, and all the fun things that go with large families. My goal is to take care of some mental health sh*t, make some money and hopefully help some other people out. So, My Sh*t Show, peek into our life blog was born.

I am keeping this anonymous for my family’s best interest.

While I understand that going public with my life, means bringing everyone with me and I am not willing to commit to that. This is my journey and doesn’t need to be theirs. Hope you guys are ready for some unbelievable sh*t.